i keep getting terrible cravings for elsewhere -- a different way of living and a different way of looking and time to wander. after so many moves in the past two years, i guess i'm confused about why i've been in chicago as long as five months, and i'm tired again of all its familiar corners. and the people are so rude and ugly; i really hate them. i want to go and look at buildings and people and art i don't know. and i'm "homesick" for the bay area -- the dancing and the people and the beauty of northern california -- chicago has a lot to offer, but after years here, it is not and will never be home.